ONE DAY

ONE DAY

One day you'll wake up, and you'll feel it.
One day you'll wake up, and you'll know it. 
One day you'll wake up, and you'll admit it.
One day you'll wake up, and you'll see it
One day you'll wake up and you'll realize it

You'll feel, that you have changed
You'll know, that you have changed
You'll admit, that you have changed
You'll see, that you have changed
You'll realize, that you have changed

But then again, allow me to replace one word there. "Changed". I'll replace it with the word "grown"
Yes. Grown..oh! Wait a second.. This sounds even better!  "Outgrown". Yes! Outgrown is the word. (I feel like am in the "aha" moment😂)

But seriously, there's a point you get to in life, when you've been there! done that! and got the T-shirt!  And nothing else will matter but sanity,  peace and joy.
You'll have outgrown some people, some things, some habits, some fears. Some worries. The uncertainty of the future won't scare you anymore.  You'll be excited. You'll look forward to what each day will bring. You'll see the present for what it really is; A present. A gift.  And you'll treasure it.

This day, won't just happen. This day won't just come. But more Importantly, this day, is not a destination. This day is a process. Like a child who outgrows breast milk to eating solid food, so are we all. It's a process. One that takes time. You can't rush it. Nope!  But one day, you will wake up,call yourself for a meeting. You will ask yourself very hard questions! Like reaaaally hard questions.. But guess what? You will answer those questions. Why? Because you had the answers all this time. What you didnt have though, was the Courage to be true to YOURSELF. Yap! Yes. Yourself.  This time, the answers will not only be true, but honest as well.  It is on this day, that you will know that you are a different person. Freedom! Freedom is the only word I can find that describes the feeling you'll get when that day comes..

To some of us, the day has already come..Some of us feel we are almost getting to that day. And some, hhmm.. We have no clue of what that day is and if it even exists.. Whatever stage you are at, be patient. Like I said. It's a process. One that takes time. One that can't be rushed. But it will come.....One day...

Love,

Luxo 😊

Love,
Luxo

NOT ALL THAT IS BROKE NEEDS FIXING

Hey there😊
I'm so sorry it's been a whole year since I was here.  I was setting up a music school (Matete Music School), among other things. But am back and will try to be consistent by the grace of God. 😊
Missed you though😢

So one time, one wise woman told me that at no point in time, will we have everything figured out.  There will always be something that we are working towards to make it better..  This day when I went to her, it felt like I was always chasing after something..  When my money was right, my relationship was not. When my friendships were working, my health was not..
Immediately I find a breakthrough in one issue, another issue was up needing my attention..

And so that was the order of the day.. But from that meeting that day, I learned that in deed, we will always have a challenge or a situation that is not so pleasant.. so the solution is not to try and fix everything, but learn to enjoy each moment while trying to fix it..

But then again, sometimes we are busy trying so hard to fix certain things yet, not everything that is broke, needs to be fixed.. Sometimes just let it be.. If your phone's cracked screen doesn't stop you from using the phone, please go ahead and use it as it is..  (I've fixed mine twice now 😂😂... I have no intention of doing it again)

Don't bother fixing it if the need to fix the screen, is draining your energy and giving you sleepless nights.. The phone is working! Period!

Sometimes, it's not situations that are in need of fixing, but rather we that are broken and need fixing.. But then again even though we may be broken, we don't necessarily need fixing.. In the pursuit of fixing ourselves, we lose ourselves. We start to live in the future. We stop living in the now.. Too obsessed with fixing...Just stop!!!

At one Point in our lives, we receive some news that changes our lives completely.  The death of a loved one.. You have to learn how to live without them. Doctor's report that your condition has no cure, but you can learn how to live with it or control it..  You may become a burden to your family and friends. But hey, life has to go on. You have to adjust your mind,heart,soul to the fact that they may not always be there no matter how much they love you or want to be there for you..
You Begin to prepare for your crush landing.. Safe landing... Whatever kind of landing you wanna have..

Truth is this, we are human and at one point we run out of patience. Everybody wants a great life. To be happy and enjoy. After all, YOLO, (You Only Live Once) . That's what they say

It would be so sad to put your life in the hands of human beings.. To believe that they will always be there.  Consider this scripture

Jeremiah 17:5 KJV
Thus saith the Lord ; Cursed be the man that trusteth in man, and maketh flesh his arm, and whose heart departeth from the Lord .

I've learned that we sometimes put our lives in the hands of people and expect them to do, say the right things all the time.. But because they are just as human as we are, they have their short comings and they will fail us, hurt us, disappoint us one way or the other.. Not because they hate us, or they don't love us. No. They are just human

What is the solution? Try and change them? 😂 That even sounds funny😂..  Tell them that they hurt us with what they do? Then what? Tomorrow they'll do it again..  Stop loving them maybe? Nope!! The heart's not so smart😂😂😂

Leave? Disown them? Cheat? End the friendship? What if it's blood? Your Parents, sister. Will you disown them? Absolutely not
But I have a solution 😊

A secret I recently learned. Trust in the Lord. Yap! That simple. When you focus on Jesus Christ, the things of this world, strangely grow dim.  Consider this scripture again...

Proverbs 3:5-6 KJV
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. [6] In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

It is only God who can change the hearts of people. Only Him who will never leave.. Only one who will keep to the promise.. Don't hate them when they leave, or when they get tired..You too gave up on some people.. In the end, this is the truth. Hard truth.  Everyone for themselves.. God for us all. But God won't be for you if you don't allow Him to be..

Stop stressing over who leaves, will leave, left, may leave..Enjoy the moment. Trust in God. He won't leave.. He won't get tired. He won't get bored. He won't think you're too much. He won't think you're pretending. He won't think you need fixing. He is not looking for perfect..He loves you just as you are.  He knows you. You won't  have to explain a thing to Him. He knows it before you think of telling Him.. My dear rest in the Lord. Busk in His unfailing love.  He alone can fix what is broke.

Kindly leave a  comment, let me know your thoughts😊

Love,
Luxo

THE VOICE

About five years ago, I got to learn of a reality TV singing competition called THE VOICE. Having watched the Show, I got to understand why they called it THE VOICE and not A VOICE, or VOICES. Looking at the English grammar, when you use "The" , it means a specific thing. A particular thing.. So, in this show, the judges don't just look for a good singing voice, but a voice that is distinct. Unique in its own way. Meaning, there are voices, but there is one kind of voice they are looking for.

So, having taken the long route to introduce my topic for today, let's now talk about The voice of God. Have you ever been in a situation where you needed God to speak? A state of frustration, confusion, but most of all, desperation? Desperate to hear what God says about a particular thing? Well, I have. And I can boldly say, it's not a good place to be at. I call it the make or break place.. Because depending on the voice you hear, you will end up making a very crucial decision that will change your life forever.

Walking this Christian journey, requires that you learn how to hear the voice of God.. Because this is what will guide you in all that you do..

"When the Voice of God Is Not Heard, Men Go Where God Did Not Send Them"
David Wilkerson, 1988

I have been in that place of wanting to hear God's voice.. Not once, not twice, not thrice. A couple of times. And every time I  have been in that situation, I have learned something new. It is very easy to confuse the voice of God with other voices.
The bible says in

John 10:27-28 KJV
My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me: [28] And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.

This verse clearly shows us that, for one to hear God's voice, they must belong to Him.  Not looking for God when they have trouble and trying to hear His voice. But rather, a consistent walk with Him and belong to Him, that after a while, you now can clearly tell His voice when you hear it. I am sure there are people people in your life that you know their voices and you would not confuse it with someone else's voice. Why? You have been with them for while. You know them. Question is, Do we really know God?

But let's be real for a moment. How many times have we asked God to speak to us, and then when He does, we are not sure whether it was Him that spoke or we heard other voices? And this brings us back to our point up here. The only way to know if it's God's voice or not, is when we spend time with Him and get to know Him more as the days go by. Our friends, are voices. Our family is a voice. Our spiritual leaders are voices. The society is a voice...Our flesh is a voice, especially when we are under pressure or we want something badly.

Many times, we have listened to these voices and thought it was the voice of God. Maybe because majority said, that was the best thing to do. Sometimes, we believe it's the voice because, everyone is doing it and so on and so forth.
It is only after a while, that we get to realize we followed the wrong voice. When things have turned upside down.. When our world had come crumbling down right before our eyes. And by this time, it is usually too late to make any changes and we end up living with the consequences of our choices.

No one is going to live this life for you. No one else walks in your shoes to know where it hurts the most. Be real with yourself and above all, be real with God.

Forget about what people think is good for you. Somehow, people have become experts of knowing what others need more than what they need. Oh, this is the kind of Job you need to do. Oh, a person like you should be in a church like this one. Oh, a woman like you deserves such a man. Oh, this is the kind of school your children ought to go to, etcetera etcetera. But, what is God saying? Because if you're gonna listen to God's voice, you will need to shut your ears to other voices.  I have come to realize most times we already know what direction to take, and asking to hear His voice is merely asking Him to confirm it. Because most times  He will have given us signs. But human beings!! I don't know what we want sometimes!!! God will give us more than one sign, but no. It's like we want Him to come down and literally drag us to the direction He is pointing us at.

In conclusion, this is what I will say. When you asked God to speak to you, you were alone.. Why then do you want to hear an answer from everyone else? Stop asking people what they think about this situation. Ask God.

How do we get to hear His voice?

1. Seek God
Jeremiah 29:12-13 KJV
Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. [13] And ye shall seek me, and find me , when ye shall search for me with all your heart.

2. Study the Bible
2 Timothy 3:16 KJV
All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness:

Of course there are more ways of learning how to hear God's voice. But maybe I will get to share them another time..

I really do hope this writing was of help

Remain blessed and kindly drop something in the comments box

Love,
Luxo

THE MASK

We laugh, we cry
We make jokes and make people smile
We appear to be fine
But the real truth is on the inside

Sanguine? Choleric? No. She's definitely a melancholy. Or maybe phlegmatic...
Well, there are two sides to the coin. The side you see, and the one you can't see till you flip the coin

Our words are the exact opposite of what we crave for
Obviously, silently crave for
We scream out loud
"Leave me alone!"
But what we are really saying is
"Please stay"

We repeatedly say
"I'm fine"
But what we wish we would boldly say is
"I'm helpless"

"I am ok.. Nothing hurts me. I am used to it. I have built walls. If you wanna stay, stay. If you wanna leave, you know your way out.. I'm happy on my own. I like it here"

But silently, these are he words in our heart, that we wish lips would say

"I am not ok. I want to cry. My heart is fragile and all am doing is trying to be ok. I don't want to tell anyone about the pain, because I feel no one will understand me. I mean, I don't even  understand me sometimes.. I can't force you to stay. But if it were my wish, I'd wish that you can stay"

Learn how to speak. I have had to learn the hard way. But I have realised it helps to say what you're feeling. But you must be careful with who you are talking to..They may not offer help by saying do this or that. But to have someone listen is something.  Speaking frees you in way. Frees you from a bondage you didn't know held you bound.

Wish you well.
Love,
Luxo

LET LOVE LEAD THE WAY

I don't know any other way of loving other than totally giving your heart to someone knowing very well that by loving them that much, you're also giving them the power to break you completely. But to me, that seems like the only genuine and sensible way of loving.

They tell me, I need to learn how to love with my mind and not heart. That I need to love half way. So that in case it doesn't work out, then I won't get hurt as much.. But to me,  that's not true love. I mean. Is it even possible?

I guess love in itself is a risk. Loving someone with all your heart, even though at the back of your mind, you know that things won't always be great. And that one day, the very person who promised to fight the world to keep you, may just decide to walk away. And... Yeah!

So my dear. If life gives you a chance to love, go ahead and love. Love deeply and honestly. No rules. No restrictions. Just let love lead the way.  If it works out, Praise the Lord! If it doesn't work out, Praise the Lord! Because I believe that whatever is meant to happen, will eventually happen.

#LiveLoveLaugh  #LoveChronicles

JUST WAIT ON HIM

I started singing when I was about 8 years old. The only language I understood was Luhya, my mother tongue, and I was  learning both Swahili and English at the same time. But who is my father? (Babangu ni nani?) 😂😂
He taught me English songs! Mercy!!
How the original songs sound when I listen to them now and how they sounded when I sang them back then, is a story for another day😂😂 Selah
(Pause, and think of that)

Anyway, for a long time I used to just sing gospel music until the day I got saved and became a worship leader. I moved from song leading to worship leading. The latter involves, doing it in spirit and in truth.
John 4:24 KJV
God is a Spirit: and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth. The former, only requires a good voice and skill.

But for the time, I have been a worship leader, I'll be honest and say, that there are times, you are almost tempted to just go through the motions. I mean, you're present in the body but not spirit. All you want is to go through the worship set.

It is self doing it and not the Spirit of God through you. So what do you do when you are in this place? What do you do when you don't feel like worshiping?  Because you don't want to just say words and not mean them.
I like the New International Version of

Isaiah 29:13
The Lord says: "These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. Their worship of me is based on merely human rules they have been taught.

Mercy Lord!!

The secret is to wait on the Lord. We all know David as a great worshiper. But Psalms 40:1 shows us that David wasn't in the mood of worship all the time. And those times when he didn't feel like it, he waited on God.

Psalm 40:1-3 KJV
I waited patiently for the Lord ; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry. [2] He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings. [3] And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it , and fear, and shall trust in the Lord .
May God teach us how to wait on Him

Blessed day to you even as you learn how to wait on God☺

GOD, WHERE ARE YOU?

Hey there.. I will start by apologizing for being away for too long. Please, please accept my apologies. But now am back, and am gonna be around for a long time.

My pastor once told me, consistency is key. I have decided to be consistent, as the Lord helps me and leads me.

So, today, let's talk about that million dollar question. God, where are you?

Most times when we ask this question, it's usually because we are going through a rough time in our lives. We wonder why God would allow some things to happen, yet we serve Him. Why He would allow certain things to happen to us yet He said He will never leave us nor forsake us.

Hebrews 13:5 KJV
Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.

But this morning as I was I was worshiping, I found myself asking this very question. God, where are you? Not that I was wondering why He has forsaken me. But at that moment, I wanted to see Him and worship Him. Not just by the imagination of who He is. I wanted to see His face. Touch Him. Fall down at His feet and worship Him. I wanted to touch Him and adore Him.  Can you imagine for a second how that will be? Well, a second is just too short a time to think of such an amazing experience.. So let's make that two minutes. 😊

Like you'd be telling God how much you love Him, while you look at His face. I don't think "look" is even the right word to use. Gaze would be though. I mean, imagine all that beauty. Splendour. Think of the most beautiful person or thing you've ever laid your eyes on. Even that, ain't close to what God is. 

The Hebrew term for presence is "Panim". Meaning " face" . I like what the bible says in

Revelation 22:3-4 KJV
And there shall be no more curse: but the throne of God and of the Lamb shall be in it; and his servants shall serve him: [4] And they shall see his face; and his name shall be in their foreheads.

Wow! This is an encouragement, to give us hope that indeed one day, we shall see His face. As I worshiped, God gave me a song and I got myself singing to these words, (I didn't record the melody though...😢😢)

Where are you
That I may come and bow down
Where are you
That I may come and worship you
Worship you in your presence
Show me your face, show me your glory
I want to worship you in your presence

And at that very last line. I asked myself if I was really ready to see His face. Would I be able to contain the awesomeness of His face? The ruler of everything. How mighty can He honestly be? Just the entrance of a president in a room changes the atmosphere. How much more God? The master of the universe?
Adam and Eve trembled at His presence.

Genesis 3:8 KJV
And they heard the voice of the Lord God walking in the garden in the cool of the day: and Adam and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God amongst the trees of the garden.

I then realized how unworthy I was before God.
He is too righteous and holy. The self existent God.. He is God by Himself.. Not created by human hands. He is God and God alone. Powerful and wonderful! He is glorious. All we can do, is honor Him. Worship Him. Revere Him.

As we invite His presence, let's understand how great it is and what it can do. Being the Omnipotent God that He is we can be assured, that where His presence is, things must change. Your life, your situation can never remain the same when God's presence is in it.

So back to our question. Where are you God? In other words, how do we experience your presence?  This is how...

1. When we long for Him
Psalm 42:1-2 KJV
As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God. [2] My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God: when shall I come and appear before God?

2. When we have pure hearts
James 4:8 KJV
Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded.

3. When we worship and Praise Him
Psalm 22:3 KJV
But thou art holy, O thou that inhabitest the praises of Israel.

My dear reader, I pray that you are inspired but above all, encouraged that if we keep our eyes on the prize, one day we shall see God face to face and gaze upon His beauty forever more.

Revelation 21:3-4 KJV
And I heard a great voice out of heaven saying, Behold, the tabernacle of God is with men, and he will dwell with them, and they shall be his people, and God himself shall be with them, and be their God. [4] And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.

In His presence there is fullness of joy and at His right hand, pleasures forever more.. In His presence, there is no more pain, curse, tears, mourning. Just joy! Ask your neighbor, "Do you have Joy?"

Love,
Luxo